I'm 40 Bishh!! Unapologetically ME
This week I turned the big 40. Oh! That sounds so scary to me when I say this. I had this plan when I was a child; by the time, I was 40, I would be well into my career, married with kids, and traveling. I have been traveling, not married yet, but I do have kids, and as far as my career is finally going in the right direction. I am not entirely were I want to be in life, but I am closer than I was last year and the year before. My dad always tells me you’re not too old for anything, and you got this. He still says I’m better off than he was at his age, and I have more knowledge and daring. A lot has happened in my life, good and bad, but they were all learning lessons, and I genuinely feel this is God’s way of setting me up for everything I’m receiving now. I can teach my children at their early age, and they can be better off than their father and me. Everything I have now I have been set up for and worked my ass off to get here. For one, I started letting God guide my path and listening to Him more. When I tried to do things my way, I failed every time, and I failed hugely. Those little steps I have been taking have added up to significant steps.
Last year was a massive eye-opener for me. Being in quarantine allowed you to be with yourself and learn the good, bad, and ugly. 2020 allowed you to appreciate the little things more, expand your skills, and be open to new challenges. 2021 have I some fantastic new things in store. I will keep you updated as time goes on. For the big 4-0, Frank and I were supposed to go to Italy and have a great time, but we are still in the pandemic. It was a bummer, but just looking back on things and being happy to celebrate another birthday is truly a blessing. Some people weren’t so lucky. We have decided to go out to dinner and have some fun. Something a little safe and go back home. Next year hopefully, all of this will be over in some way, and we can celebrate my big 4-0 then. I have decided to change up my hair color and go back to honey blonde.
Something about turning forty has changed in me. My patience levels are short for B.S., and I have no time for negativity. I have always been the person to try to make things work with people and please everyone, but you will drive yourself crazy trying to do that. I have been going in circles trying to please other people and now it’s time to be a little selfish and do what’s best for me. People will always have something to say whether positive or negative, but that’s not for me to worry about anymore. I have learned from therapy I have to let go and let be. Change what I can change and what I can’t change; leave it to GOD. Do what makes you happy and Fuck the rest. Negative people will be just that negative. Tune them out and work towards creating a better YOU. Nine times out of ten, you who are the problem you present something in them that’s the problem. This year blessings are in store, and I’m wide open to receiving all of mine. I wasn’t too happy about turning forty, but now I’m accepting my age with arms wide open. I will keep you posted on the new adventures I have in store. Until Next Time!!
Talk To You Soon!!